Heart to Heart

I don't know what happened but my previous blog was deleted for no reason. Guess I will just have to start all over again.Recently many things happened and they caused me to think about life seriously. 


Last Sunday morning was the day when Mom and family left Perth. Although they only visited me for just ten short days, their leaving made a huge difference in my daily lifestyle. I woke up in my empty room, had breakfast by myself, sat in front of my laptop alone, had no one to talk to... Strange isn't it? Habits can develop over a short period of time. During those ten days, every morning I was pulled out from my sweet dream by my baby sister and spent the rest of the day with Mom, little sister, brother, and aunt. It felt so different having my family around. Warmth. Love. Happiness. 

That Sunday night, while waiting for Mom's call from home in Malaysia, I received a call from my best friend.   All I heard was her crying over the phone,
" Esther, my uncle killed himself..."
Those words stabbed straight into my heart. My mind went blank. I didn't know what to say that I even blurted out "Hmm...Hmm... Are you okay?" when she was obviously not and crying herself out. All of a sudden I just felt so depressed and sad. I was overwhelmed by pessimistic feelings. I felt so lonely without having my beloved family around. I felt helpless and guilty too that I didn't know how to comfort my best friend and help her. Then I was thinking, " If only I'm like he/she, then I'll know what to do." I'm the type pf person who really doesn't know how to comfort people in situations like this. All I know is to give them a hug and be a good listener. But I am learning. I wish I can be helpful in the future when those around me are put under the same situation again.

This week will be my last week of holidays, which means that I'll have to delete my "holiday mood" and activate my "study mode". 2012 second semester of first year uni, here I come!